when scamsters control your life like that, you need to take a step back and look for some help. There's nothing new here, just the technology is a little different. I knew guys who would blow their whole paychecks trying to get some stripper to let them touch her or go home with them. It was pathetic to watch, and even more pathetic when their obsessions led them to self-destruct.
In the end, it's your money. The sad part is that you don't have to pay ONE DIME to see all kinds of nudity, sex, porn, beastophilia, whatever you can think of on the internet. Guys who throw money away on phonesex, chat lines, webcams and the like are not looking for porn, they are looking for some kind of personal connection. But anything you have to pay money for is not only false, it is toxic. You will not get anything fulfilling out of it, only grief. Wise up and save your money.