Sanka, from what I remember of you and the whole "to-do" (and I don't remember much), you're a cool guy, and it sounds like you're being too hard on yourself. No worries.
Heh heh ... heh heh ... I said "hard on" ... heh heh ... heh heh ...
Ahem. Give yourself a break, amigo. Trust me when I say that IMRO you're better than 99.99% of all FP members. Oh shit, BTW, sorry to hear about the hospital stint. That sucks.
You know, come to think of it, we haven't had a good forum-shaking flap around here in a couple months. We're due, it seems like every month or so some sort of bad shit goes down ... and good posters leave ... etc etc. We need some controversy!!
Where's that rabble-rousin' Gnome?
Instigatin'Man